that was one incoherent writing.

guo le min tian, yi que jiu mei shi.

training yesterday was tough. but at the end it felt good. it's always like that huh. well 4 hours at a go can be quite tiring. how the heck did we have to do that 4 man v cut drill for so bloody long? argh. never mind, need to up the intensity too.

can't wait for tuesday to be over. 3 effing tests on that day. thik i'll screw up badly both physics and bio prac. the result of not listening to physics lectures, not doing physics tutorials, copying all my prac drawings. dammit. what shit have i got myself into?

look, i'm tired.

anyway, last night was really good. thanx ppl. i won't forget it anytime soon. haha..

tuesday pls be over soon.. think maybe i'm even gonna enjoy chem s..

anyway, i'm not proud of the fact that i still don't know what i'm gonna do after this year. i mean, i really have not much idea. it's hard. i don't know yet exactly what i want. i mean i have some vague idea but i'll have to think about it soon.

you know sundays shouldn't be spent studying and doing work.

chem test tmr. which is supposed to be damn hard! well, when it is not? so study for what right? nah, still have to spend later going through stacks of notes, with lots of numbers to mug and things to understand and concepts to grasp. 4655, 3433. impt huh.. sis going off melbourne tmr..can't send her off cuz got training.. damn. God bless her. something i noticed about this year so far.. it's been going at like twice the normal speed. like time flies faster than before. i have close to no time on my hands now. which is bad. cuz i don't seem to get much done these days. something that has got to change. ouch, ankle got more pain yesterday after tripping over some stuff at home. aww. shit lah. i hate training injured. not in studying mood currently. ok, will try study nonetheless. do i have a choice?

the past still haunts me.

think i've been hiding from this truth. the past still haunts me. it was ugly at times. good at others. too bad they didn't last. well the least i can get from all these are the lessons i ought to learn. if not the fight was not worth it. for now, i'll put the past where it should be and move on. whoosh.

i'm 6521 days old.

whoosh an extremely unproductive day in school today.. read some gaiman graphic novel death..borrowed another one to read.. did close to nothing actually. ok i'll put in more effort. i have to. i want to be more knowedgeable you know.. haha. but really, it's good to know more things. must somehow find to discipline to do more work.

you know something. i don't like missing trainings. i mean i want to enjoy training..though during training itself it's hard to think that way.. haha. so like guess i'll have to find time to play ball myself.. anyway, my ankle finally feels ok today. i mean it still hurts when i put it in some positions. so not gonna play till thursday.. meanwhile work's gonna keep me occupied. anyway, today's episode in the canteen about zhengxian was damn funny. hoping for more productive days to come. and never end.